This is my "Dear John" letter to you. No longer will you control my life. I've got you right where I want you now! Mania, I loved you so much in the beginning, we were soul mates. I loved how you made me feel- like I could do anything because of the power you gave me. We were the "it" couple. We had so much fun- all the drinking and sex was so exciting to me. But now I've outgrown you- I wasn't in love with you but infatuated by ecstasy. You took me so high and then your buddy "Depression" came along. I couldn't get out of bed or take care of myself or eat because "Mania" left me. Then came the suicidal ideations, how could I go on without "Mania" anymore, how could I go on? So the drinking got worse, then the anxiety then the agoraphobia, I was a prisoner in my own house and mind. So goodbye, both of you. I've moved on to someone who truly loves me and respects me- no more yo-yo effect! I am a child of God now and you will never be in my life again. I know I've taken the two of you back so many times in the past, but no more. This is my closure- and I've moved on! So stay away- don't call-don't try to visit I wont be there. I'm taking my life back and you two manipulative cowards can go to hell. That's where you put me, but that's where you belong! So everything you took from me, all the grief and loss that you put me through is over and gone! I'm stronger now and you have no hold on me anymore. By the way, I have a wonderful life now! I've met the true love of my life, I have my family and many wonderful friends I've met here at Project Anchor.
Goodbye forever! Kat
StigmaHurts is part of the Mental Health Awareness Committee of Ocean County, NJ All comments and questions should be directed to mail@stigmahurts.com